Week #31: Bellyache

Welcome back to this weeks blog! Our song this week is “Bellyache”, a single by singer-songwriter Billie Eilish. It’s a song with strange lyrics set to a bouncy, dance beat. A few seconds into the song, Billie sings, “Sittin’ all alone, mouth full of gum, in the driveway.” This paints an image of innocence and loneliness, but the next few lines say otherwise as she bellows, “My friends aren’t far, in the back of my car, lay their bodies.” Yes, this song is about murder. Upon first listen, I was so involved in the synth and beat that I didn’t notice that it was about violence, but on my second listen I was pulled in by the dark lyrics. During the whole of the record, Billie sings about her crimes, the Police finding her, and her suicide. Of course, this is all a work of fiction conjured from Billie’s imagination. Anyway, to continue, the song works it’s way to the pre-chorus where Billie enchantingly sings, “Where’s my mind?” four times. This question is directly answered in the chorus where Billie says, “Maybe it’s in the gutter, where I left my lover, what an expensive fate. My V is for Vendetta, thought that I’d feel better, but now I got a bellyache.” Because the song is written from the point of view of a psychopath, it is unveiled that she is crazy. The woman depicted has killed her lover, her friends, and stolen money (mentioned in the second verse). But, now that she has a “bellyache” or a lingering feeling of regret. To continue the tale, Billie sings in the third verse, “Everything I do, the way I wear my noose, like a necklace. I wanna make ’em scared, like I could be anywhere. Like I’m wreck-less.” This displays how psychotic this character is. She decides to commit suicide instead of rotting away in jail to end her reign of terror. But, this is so that she will live on in stories and go down in history as a threat. She wants the people to be scared and fearful even when she’s dead. Billie went to comment on her song, saying that she wrote it when “her mind was in the gutter”, comparing herself to the psychopath in the record. She wrote the song when her mind wandered to terrible thoughts. But, Billie mainly wrote it just for kicks. That is all for this week’s song, “Bellyache.”  I hope you enjoy this song (and the little plot twist at the end of the music video).